Dennis debating at Oxford...

So my boss, Dennis Hof, is debating legalized prostitution at Oxford.  I don't know much about the debate, or what he's said, but I commend him.  He really sticks up for his girls and his family.  Here's my take.

The first time I learned about the Bunny Ranch, it was on Tyra's show a couple of years ago.  I was watching Tyra because a good friend was over and wanted to watch it.  I'd never heard Tyra speak before in my life, but I thought everything that came out of her mouth was biased, black and white, and hypocritical, considering her life.  She was criticizing the girls for taking their clothes off for money.

Take 3 steps back there, buddy.  My first memory of Tyra was as a young girl in the 90's.  Tyra was on the cover of a Sports Illustrated, pulling down her swimsuit bottom.  I remember asking my dad, "Why is she taking them off?"  and my dad replying, "Uhhh, because she doesn't like them."

Anyway, I just find it really hypocritical - the whole situation.  If prostitution is illegal, why are sugar daddies not illegal?  Why is a loveless marriage not illegal?  Why is buying a girl a drink at a bar and wanting sex ok, but paying for sex is not ok?  What's the damn difference?  Why is it ok for Tyra to make millions for sexual modeling and sexual exploitation of her own body?  Does Tyra point fingers at her own industry and work to stop the common practice of "fucking the right people" to get to the top?  Easy for her to say.  She was discovered, and worked very hard I'm sure...but seriously, does she think anyone can do what she did?  We don't all look like her.  We don't all have those opportunities in life.  I may be here, but I realize that.

Dennis is easy to point fingers at.  I get it.  But we are safe here.  We don't have to do a single thing that we don't want to do. I can leave whenever I want.

It comes down to legitimization - and everyone is here for different reasons.  And everyone has different justifications.

I really don't feel like it's manipulation...most of the girls here will tell it like it is.  We are actresses in a way, but in others, not.  I really enjoy people.  Someone who takes the time to get to know me and enjoy their time with me is welcome to spend time with me.  But I'm not very competitive and I'm not catty.  I can hold a conversation about almost anything.  And I LIKE it.  There are aspects that are hard (harhar) but that's like any job.

One thing we aren't, however, is a house full of the "most emotionally abused women."  I haven't met any of them, they must be invisible.  Or I, the people watcher, must be blind.

we've come undone...

Just had a stream of thought.  Where I'm at, I'm able to "escape" from my daily reality.  I think that's what people mean when they say, "reality check."  Escape from reality and check it out - from the outside in. Stop your routine, and look at your life from a perspective.

WOW.  Yup, yeah, bet you haven't done it for a while.  Why do you do the things you do everyday?  What's it all for?  What do you hope to accomplish and gain for yourself from what you're doing?  Open your eyes.  Wake up.  Feel alive.  Feels good, right?

Hopefully it feels good.  Sometimes it feel not so good - and this, my friend, is the point where you need to make some changes in your routine.  Do something different.  It will change you.  Whatever it is, big or small, we need to constantly be adjusting our lives to really find ourselves.

If you do your best at trying out every situation, you'll never be left wondering.  Give it your best shot.

good

So, I'm feeling good, if you didn't already read the post title.  Arrived in NV yesterday, met some amazing people.  I find that most of the time, I generally neither care for nor dislike (see how vague and timid I was writing that?) people.  People are just people - we walk by thousands every day and don't care whether or not we have a relationship with each and every one of them.  We're all indifferent.
But I must say - I've got a really good chance here to connect.  Hence the blog title.  I really crave getting to know people on an individual level.  I mean, I look back onto my life, and some crazy shit has gotten me to where I'm at right at this moment.  It's cool to think about - and you know, most people have those stories, but because of our personal bias, we will never quite understand.

For example, my boss at my vanilla job is so naive she thinks I'm making shit up all the time.  she thinks I'm an exaggerator, a liar, and an attention seeker.  But that's not my thing.  I'm just open, honest, and have been a few places that other's haven't.  Shouldn't that be ok?  Or do we have to cast out those people with life-shaping experiences?  Make them feel like their feelings and experiences never existed?  That my friends is a way that abuse is perpetuated.  Be wary.

Met someone today that I had a hard time believing their outrageous claims.  WELL....I seem to find myself guilty of what pisses me off.  Apparently I don't believe other people who've had crazy deals in life.

Ok, ok, I'll cut myself some slack...she really really sounded like she was proud of it, showing it off, etc.  The typical, insecure coping mechanism we can unknowingly utilize if we're in strange situations.  It's all good.  sounded like a story, but maybe I just think storytelling should be more sincere, whether it happened or we made it up.  Also, it was followed by some outrageous claims that I was REALLY skeptical about.  Here I am justifying...I guess I'm a hypocrite.  She just wanted to be loved, and that was her way, whatever it was.  I showed compassion but didn't wrap myself up in her drama...cuz let's face it, there's drama here.  Even wasting some of my precious skepticism isn't worth it.

Many hugs and goodnight kisses!